Since I'm goin to move next month, if everythin works fine of course...I have to leave behind my friends again. But thats not the worlds end, there is internet, letters, even the telephone. And its not like anythin really changes, except the place and the people. I'm livin close to Berlin, where most of my friends live, and even so I do not visit them reguarly. Mostly because they seem to turn 'normal', since they have found their 'true love' and stuff. Nao all they can think about is to get married oneday, prefered a double wedding with me and my lover (not that I have one at all o_O)...and gettin babies. First I have to say, I'm not a fan of kids. Au Contraire . . .I do not share the feelin when a woman/girl sees a baby and goes like this: 'Aaah, soooo cute~ OOh bubu baba *pats*' <---- Thats like uber sick in my eyes. XD Babies arent cute, unless its asian. Besides there is definitely no need to talk in a 'baby language', obviously the baby wont understand u, doesnt matter which language. They understand paralanguage and ur mimic. Babies arent silly and they love me. I wonder why...cuz I dont like them. Also kids, they cling to me like a bur. lol
I remember havin a girlfriend once, I visited her house and she introduced me to her lil sister. That girl was so excited to see me, and u know actually I should have been the one thats excited since it was my first visit at her house. xD Damn, she even gave me her autograph book to sign in. It kinda felt like she was the real reason why I visited them. Tho, thats long time ago by nao and back then I was really well-behaved and shy I guess. Today, I would just grab my lovers hands and run away from that lil devil who wants to absorb our energy made out of love. (>_>)' Anyway, what I really wanted to say, I find it ridiculous and rude of my friends for not carin at all. All they can say is that I am a traitor, or whine about that I leave. Dont they realize that those words hurt my feelings. Of course I can totally understand when they are sad, we are humans after all, right. c: But I am the kind of person, I would expect them to say stuff like this: 'Wow Lina, congratulation on findin a good place for u and ur family to live and cure (I'm not very healthy). We will miss u a lot, tho for sure we are goin to keep in touch and might visit u too!! *hugz*' LOL Time to laugh about myself bein so stupid and really expect people to understand me. xD
The fact is, nobody regards it as important to wish me luck or to congratulate at all. After 6 years of friendship I find that really sad.
I also think its ridiculous and nonsensitive when people cant accept a no. If a person says no, then it should be treated as no too. Its wrong to think u could be able to change their mind. Usually u just piss them off and destroy relationships of any kind. A no is a no. But it seems a lot of people cant accept it. Lets call it rude and not respecting.
By the way, this is where my family is goin to move probably: www.fewo-in-hahnenklee.de/images/luftbildbestequalitaet_480.jpg
I will tell more about it when everything works well. . .
Oh ya, did I mention that I was always the one who had to go to her friends places?! And its quite not easy or cheap. Since I have to drive with the train 1 hour and a half to enter Berlin. Guess what, they never visited me at my house once! Its not that bad, tho a friend should at least ask to come over instead of ignorin me and expectin me to drive to Berlin all the time whenever they want. I have to say, even kindness has it limits. :D Its about time to reduce my friendships in real life and just have contacts on internet and letters (yes, I do love letters ♥), and heal myself more...hopefully I will be able to find better friends oneday, people who actually care.
Have a nice day! :D